WHAT I'M THINKING ABOUT

It's that smile,
That flash of light that comes
out of it that makes the organ
inside my chest to explode into
tiny bits of happiness.
It is that deep voice,
that makes my earlobes open up
every time you talk,
Just so i can listen to you.
You're special.

SHOULD I? SHOULD I NOT?

I want to tell him I love him,
but I am scared of his reaction.

Will he turn over and go back to bed?
Will he stare at me like I
just got from a trip from hell?
Will he turn on his back and mumble
a couple of 'whats' before he slams the door and leaves?
Will he say it's a little too soon?
or,
Will he say he needs sometime to recover from the shock?

It should make him happy shouldn't it?

But it terrifies me how he will reciprocate.

Will he rush out in the streets in the rain
shouting happily for the world to know?
Will he creep to his bathroom,
get all my inner wear, packs them and say
he never wants to see me again?

or,

will he just smile, take me in his arms,
kiss me on the forehead,
and on my cheek,
and on my lips,
look me in the eyes and say:
"I love you too"?

TIDES OF TIME.

So often I
Wonder why
Why I have to wait
for so long
waiting for the hour
Or the day things will
Stop being the way they are
The hour or day you will
declare the truth of your heart
and I Mine.
Sometimes I just want to let it all out
Because it has become
A big a load for me to keep
But when I'm about to
Something holds me back
"wait"
I'm told
And I turn away
and;
once again I
Weep
For I had the chance
But I trampled on it
That is the reason why
I think we are being Tested
Tested by the tides of Time
But until the test is over
And the time is ripe
I will wait
Just stand by me and I by you as we wait
Till then hold tight on the promise of
Friendship we keep
And don't let go
Because you are my Sunlight
My sunshine
And even
The sun itself
I can't afford to lose you.